Decisions

Mothering is all about decisions. Big or small, we (as mothers) feel like every decision is going to make or break our kid's life.  Do I send my kid to preschool? Where do I send my child to kindergarten? What time should I put my kid to bed? When should he nap? What should I feed him? Should I pick him up or let him "self-soothe"? How do I teach my child the value of money? When should I potty-train? Should I let my son climb up the slide in his brother's red, too-big for him, rain boots? 

And the list goes on and on . . .  We are constantly trying to be one step ahead, keeping up with each little change in the schedule. Are we ever ahead? Is it ever enough? Will we ever get to the point where we know the right decision all the time? I find myself constantly second guessing the things that I do. Most of the time I feel like I have no idea what I am doing even though I have been "practicing" for almost five years. If only I would have put him down earlier for his nap then he wouldn't be cranky. If only I would have fed him more then he wouldn't be so skinny. If only I would have put him in that school then he would be reading by now. Again, the list goes on. How do we make these monumental decisions on a daily basis and not go crazy? There is only one answer . . .  God's grace. I am so thankful that I can make wrong decisions, but my God is still there to work it all out according to His plan. I need to let it go and give it to Him. 

 He will be my safety net. He is watching out for me and my children. He loves them more than I ever could, and that is so comforting. In the day to day decision making, I don't have to worry. I don't have to doubt. I don't have to fear. God is there. He knows I only want the best for my kids. He will take care of them.